Yesterday, I woke up with crushing fear. Like most of my fear these days, it was financial. Fear of being a failure. Fear of not being able to provide for my family. Fear of moving into a refrigerator box down under an unnamed bridge. I have a friend who runs a very successful appliance store so he said he would hook me up with quality Sub-Zero boxes.
Today, I woke up full of hope, joy and gratitude. A bounce in my step. Funny thing is that nothing changed on the “outside”. All the same drivers of fear are there. I did not win the $1B Mega Millions or find a crisp $20 in a pocket of a pair of pants that I have not worn since last winter (I love when that happens!).
I am grateful that the financial fear is primarily driven by the entrepreneurial kind which is all new for me. Cash flowing a direct to consumer business by “float” on credit cards is a great way to get in touch with some primal fears. Don’t get me wrong, I still have some “stupid tax” as Dave Ramsey says about poor financial decisions to live beyond my means.
It is an inside job. If I take care of the small things…praying, meditating, serving others, living in the present (that past and future are killers for my mental state!), everything seems to just flow in a beautiful way.
For that, I am grateful.
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